"This letter has taken an extraordinary time getting itself together. I have all along known that I wanted to tell you directly of some lessons I have learned and under what conditions I have learned them."
“How can I tell you Everything in my Heart?" Maira Kalman once asked as she heaved her curious, observational mind into illustrations and words. That question exists in front of every writer and artist. Catholic activist Dorothy Day memorably admitted that writing was like confession, both aspects pulling secrets etched on our soul and tossing them out into the world.
In her last published book, Letter to My Daughter, Maya Angelou (April 4, 1928 – May 28, 2014) unloaded things pressed upon her heart in a series of letters to the collective daughters she's nurtured and inspired.
This letter has taken an extraordinary time getting itself together. I have all along known that I wanted to tell you directly of some lessons I have learned and under what conditions I have learned them. My life has been long, and believing that life loves the liver of it, I have dared to try many things, sometimes trembling, but daring, still.
Written when Angelou was eighty and full of love and forgiveness, it is easy to imagine the intended audience of Letter to My Daughter is Angelou’s young self—so perfectly sketched in I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings. A youth caught in the "tripartite crossfire of masculine prejudice, white illogical hate, and Black lack of power."
Both books also wonderfully illuminate and celebrate the people who delivered, as Coates put it, consciousness.
Angelou writes:
I have made many mistakes and no doubt will make more before I die. When I have seen pain, when I have found that my ineptness has caused displeasure, I have learned to accept my responsibility and to forgive myself first, then to apologize to anyone injured by my misreckoning. Since I cannot un-live history, and repentance is all I can offer God, I have hopes that my sincere apologies were accepted.
In clear, precise, and direct prose, Angelou extends her deep, generous self to every reader of this book. She mines the chasm of memory to speak on violence, loss, home, and truth.
There are many anecdotes, such as when she met singer Celia Cruz and the star influenced Angelou's singing with her weighty presence. Angelou also writes about her mother, a woman of indomitable love and force who greatly influenced young Maya.
She crawled up on the delivery table with me and had me bend my legs. She put her shoulder against my knee and told me dirty stories. When the pains came, she told me the punch line of the stories, and as I laughed, she told me, ‘Bear down.’
When the baby started coming, my little mother jumped off the table, and seeing him emerge, she shouted, ‘Here he comes, and he had black hair.’
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When the baby was delivered, my mother caught him. She and the other nurses cleaned him and wrapped him in a blanket, and she brought him to me. ‘Here, my baby, here’s your beautiful baby.'
It was refreshing—liberating even—to read Angelou's thoughts on violence:
I am never proud to participate in violence, yet I know that each of us must care enough for ourselves, that we can be ready and able to come to our own defense when and wherever needed.
Few people speak coherently and personally, of humankind's capacity for anger and violence—thresholds we all have.
Contemporary poet David Whyte views anger somewhat differently calling it "the deepest form of compassion."
I believe anger is a symptom of pain and is always a point to initiate understanding. If possible.
Above all, it is an exceptional pleasure to read Angelou's insights into compassion, kindness, and forgiveness. I return to this book several times yearly and pretend it's addressed to me.
Within three months of teaching, I had an enormous revelation; I realized I was not a writer who teaches but a teacher who writes.The best writers are teachers, not in profession but in purpose. Those strumming a desire to educate and empower. Like poet Robert Lowell and novelists George Saunders, Anne Lamott, and, my favorite, Stephen Fry.
One of Angelou's "imagined daughters" is writer and thespian Anna Deavere Smith, who reached deep into her generous and wise spirit to produce advice on creative life. It is a tender corollary to Letter to My Daughter.
You ask about fear. I take fear seriously. […] First of all, don’t deny fear. It’s a feeling like all feelings. Sometimes it is there as a warning. Sometimes you don’t need the warning and sometimes you do. Work through the fear until your body—or your psyche—gets a better idea of what you can do, until it gets a better idea that you don’t need the warning.
From Anna Deavere Smith's Letters to a Young Artist
"There are certain artists who belong to all people, everywhere, all the time," Angelou wrote of performer Celia Cruz: exactly that, exactly you, Maya.